“Let the ears hearing this and its like be seared, for who has heard or seen the likes of it? … Why did the heavens not darken and the stars not withhold their radiance; why did not the sun and moon turn dark?”
Friday, November 19th, 2010
This is the 8th post I’ve written on this site. This is the sorrowful page I’ve most dreaded adding, identifying my wife’s family, the Terauchis.
[I’ve added a section below, elaborating on the narrative of relevant family history. 2023/08]
Why do these family members cluelessly join in setting a little boy on a path of emotional disturbance? Look beyond appearances. Do decent people allow such a terrible thing to happen in their own homes?
Any and all families have a skeleton or two in the closet. But the number of incidents of children having been permanently removed from one or more of their parents in this family is more than coincidental. There are three victims of this involving the people pictured below, prior to my boy, Rui. It has become a new normal for them.
What have they done? They have stood by and encouraged Rui’s mother to commit a deep, sad form of child abuse: kidnapping my small, preschool boy to a place thousands of miles from home, out of contact and out of reach. No one knows when we’ll play ball, read stories, or kiss goodnight again.
Kaori (Terauchi) Ozai & Machico Terauchi (Prager) /PRAGER, Machiko Terauchi – Child abductors
The following section is added on Sunday, August 27, 2023.
Parental Abandonment and Abduction As A Way of Life:
Terauchi Family History
Nearly thirteen years have passed since I posted the story above. It has always seemed incomplete to me. Now putting a few notions into practice here about adding later perspectives and elements of the stories that I had felt compelled to suppress for fear of backlash in the wake of the traumas of 2010, I’m now revising some of these old posts in hopes of making a more complete accounting of our story. Here’s one section I’m adding today to the Terauchi family story and the account of Rui’s abduction:
Machiko was raised in such an unstable family core when she was small, that the effects of those traumas left a deep imprint upon her. Her mother Midori’s first husband, Machiko’s biological father, was accused by her mother of violence and drunkeness, and he was forcefully ejected from the family home when Machiko was an early-stage toddler. These accusations may have contained some real truth; Machiko had traumatic memories of moments of fighting and conflict from which she hid in a low kitchen cabinet as they took place around her. Many years later as young adults, Machiko’s older sister Kaori urged Machiko to alter this traumatic memory and imprinted understanding of what took place. Kaori claimed to remember the incidents more clearly, and told her they didn’t happen in quite the way Machiko recalled them. She urged upon her that she come to see that her father was not anything like the frightening and threatening monster he had grown into in Machiko’s memory and imagination in ensuing years. She defended him and urged Machiko to allow their father to get to know and reestablish a relationship with them; but Machiko could neither take in nor tolerate this notion. It was neither something she wanted, nor something was she able to absorb into her internal image of what she had experienced. During one or two meetings, Machiko was extremely defensive and agitated by his presence, and would not allow them to continue despite these attempts with her sister’s protective presence alongside her. For Machiko, there was nothing in it for her. Such a reconciliation of the past was inconceivable to her, and she pushed it away, anger and disgust covering her fear of this man she did not want to know more about.
Machiko’s mother was a young ambitious woman and fashion designer trying to thrive in the extraordinarily patrriarchal business world of 1970s Tokyo. After those early incidents at home, she sent Machiko and her sister to live with their grandmother in Kyushu, where her mother’s youngest teenaged sister still lived at home. Jealous of the attention seeking and disruption brought by two new young girl children in the home, the teen won her way with her parents, demanding that the two sisters be taken away to somewhere, anywhere else. As a result, Machiko and Kaori were placed in a separate apartment, alone with a full-time live-in nanny who without the family’s knowledge, nearly starved the two children, mistreating them, frequently forcing them to feed on old, unappetizing food, and treating them to severe child-abusive, violent “discipline“. Machiko and her sister suffered many incidents of pathological brutality, including one which Machiko remembered as the nanny holding her up by her feet, head down over a balcony’s edge while her sister screamed in terror for the nanny to bring Machiko back to safety. It was a nightmare scenario for the little girls, who feared even to speak of the incomprehensible psychopathology of the nanny’s wrathful conduct.
This second moment of parental abandonment came to an abrupt end once they were able to reveal the violence and fear to which they were being subjected. Machiko’s mother Midori was repentant, but felt she could not care for the two girls alone in Tokyo. So while Kaori was brought to live with her, Machiko experienced yet another traumatic separation. Her mother placed Machiko in another of Midori’s sisters’ home, Machiko’s wealthy aunt to whom she was given in an outright adoption. Machiko recalled this period through the lens of the only internalized childhood ethic she could find, and looked back at this time as one in which she was on the one hand well-treated by her aunt, but on the other, a time filled with sadness, loneliness, and suppressed longing to be reunited with Kaori and Midori to live in a full “real” family. She cried quietly at school while trying desperately to hide her unfathomable grief. It was her good fortune to have been seen by a compassionate teacher whose inquiring after what was bothering her was at last revealed told to the preoccupied Midori. Machiko, she was at last told, longed to be with her mother and her sister again. This forced Midori to go into family court with Machiko’s aunt, the adopting mother figure. Conflict and difficulty ensued yet again. I could only imagine the guilt feelings Machiko must have internalized as a small, innocent child, repeatedly the object of adult conflicts and relational rifts among those closest to her.
This period of strain finally came to an end when Machiko was still an early elementary school girl. Her mother managed to regain custody and bring her to live in her home at last. For Machiko, this memory of return made goddesses of her older sister and mother. A moment of bliss and transcendence covered the wounds of her toddling years with stardust and the protective gloss of a happy ending.
Then came Shunsuke. Machiko’s mother was professionally successful at last, and chose to remarry with fashion magazine editor Shunsuke Terauchi, who adopted the two girls and made them his own. Shunsuke has a history in Japan’s alienating and calculating family law as well. Like Midori, he too had two children by a previous marriage. And like Machiko’s birth father, Shunsuke was forced into a complete separation from his children that wounded him deeply. He wanted to reunite and remain a father to his girls, the two sisters, but alienation under the Japanese system of forced parental separation and termination of parent-child rights ruined their trust just as it had done to Machiko and her father. Shunsuke pined for children of his own; and in order to reconcile him to the new familial arrangements wtih Midori and his newly adopted daughters, he insisted that he wanted one more child who would be a living product of his new marriage. And so they had another daughter, Ai, a girl ten years separate in age from Machiko.
Their story continues with more troubles. Not the least of these saw Shunsuke involved later with Yakuza, Japan’s loan shark mafiosos, forcing upon the newly recomposed family a debt which they would never be able to pay. Brought upon them by the necessity of market growth required to the survival of their small fashion business, Shunsuke and Midori borrowed startup cash from a man associated with one of Japan’s many small business loan companies who disappeared with the debt money they’d endeavored to repay, leaving the family vulnerable to the original source of the loan, Tokyo’s Yakuza and their enforcers.
This turn of events caused the ruin of the family’s security once again. Machiko tremulously recalled the day that Yakuza thugs came to the door of the family home to muscle the parents over the debt they owed. Finding the daughters Machiko and Kaori there alone, they made an attempt to get the debt paid by the two girls, threatening to take them to work it off in a Yakuza-controlled brothel.
The terrified girls managed to get the Yakuza thugs to leave them to talk to their parents later that day. Once they spilled their terrifying story to Shunsuke and Midori, Kaori’s new husband Jun lost no time in acting to spirit them into hiding. That night, Jun and his friends brought moving vans to their home, loaded up all the possessions they could manage to pack in a few hours, and left their family home forever. They relocated within Tokyo quickly, keeping their new address and telephone numbers quietly undisclosed to anyone. Hiding in plain sight, the family acquired a new set of skills that became useful to them again later when Machiko set herself upon the course of kidnapping Rui from the United States, again hiding their identifying data and home address from the state. They kept these secrets as long as they could, hoping that the debts they owed to the loan sharks would eventually be forgotten.
These latter events took place in the mid to late 1980s as Japan’s economic boom crested, faltered, and stagnated. As international luxury trades began to lose value, the long-term capacity of a small fashion company to thrive in that environment was severely compromised. As the family experienced many financial pressures and crises, it became the daughters’ duty to keep Midori’s design and outfitting work afloat with the sweat of their labor. Keeping nothing for herself, Kaori remained unfree in the servile role of Midori’s servant and worker, while Machiko earned an independent income, starting up with a partner in the then new fashion consulting firm Steady-Study. Steady-Study soon acquired high end clients from Japan, Italy, and France. Their reputation grew and Machiko became a successful press agent for new high-end street and business fashion design figures in Tokyo. Ten years of this work made them successful, all the while Machiko accepted a subordinate role in the PR firm. Through Machiko’s service and sparse-enough style of living, the family’s financial status was shored up to a sufficient level of stability that Machiko was able to decide to realize a dream with her family’s blessing, and take a break from her nerves-challenging, intense public relations work to move to New York for a time where she hoped to learn English and get to know another side of both the fashion industry and life in general.
Things didn’t go exactly as planned in New York, although in retrospect one could say that any number of goals were realized for her. Machiko studied English at the City University’s Hunter College campus. She made friends among the students and crushed on a teacher she’d met there. It was as if at the ripe age of 30, she allowed herself at last to slow the frenzied pace of making it in a cut throat business to support herself and family, and to finally relax and experience some of her to-then suppressed human feelings and vulnerability for the first time in her life. Having long withheld fundamental elements of young adulthood from herself under the weight of the psychological and emotional traumas of her youth and the intrusive and dominating demands of success-seeking in niche-market economic ventures in global fashion, Machiko allowed herself to fall in love.
A new arrival in New York only a few months after 9-11 had changed the face of the city and made the prospects of future economic beginnings very, very precarious, Machiko began attending classes after a freak curbside accident twisted her ankle so badly that she became hobbled and forced to walk on crutches for the first months of her new venture. Evidently no stranger to adversity, she limped to classes at Hunter where she was quiet but, to all external appearances, happy to be there and open and friendly to classmates.
Some months later, close to the end of the semester, she approached her professor, joined him alone in an elevator cab, and shyly confessed to him that she liked him. She told me this calmly and sweetly without any accompanying suggestion or demand for reciprocation. Largely out of politeness, I smiled, shook her hand and thanked her, telling her I liked her too without a hint of expectations of any kind. It seemed like an adult student in a class filled with younger students was offering appreciation and support from one working person to another having experienced and understood the cost of the daily grind. We parted ways when the elevator doors slid open, and it wasn’t until many more days had passed and the end of the semester drew near that anything more was spoken or shown between us. And that is a story for another day, and another moment.
Who could have known then that the history of family trauma, abuse, and abandonment that Machiko and her family had learned to hide so well was set to produce another generational wound only a few years afterward? What this family’s history does do is provide evidence of theories of inter-generational trauma and the Freudian notion of repetition compulsion. Having been victims and perpetrators of child abduction and aggressive alienation, the ensuing generation abducts and alienates again, replaying the story to make it “come out right”, to satisfy an emotional and psychological desire felt by the parent and forced upon the children.
The family photo album of people who can’t conceive that my right and Rui’s right to be together must be respected and my Rui must be returned home to the Daddy who loves him.
What do you hope to gain by publicizing the identities and photograph’s of your child’s mother and associated people? Have you considered that by doing so you may be sabotaging yourself and preventing any future amicable communication that could lead to contact with your son from taking place? Your son himself might one day stumble upon this and react unfavorably. I say that as a father who also tried to publicize the relocation of my son from the United States many years ago hoping to garner support and was later paid back with scathing raw rage from my son shortly after his 18th birthday a few years ago. Our sole reunifying contact was a one sided rant consisting mainly of sentences starting with “How dare you…..” He felt fiercely protective of his mother,stepfather,the country he had grown up in,and various other involved parties. He felt I had been on a 11 year campaign to tear everyone and everything he knew and loved away from him. If an eventual amicable reunion with your son sometime in the future is your main objective then attacking and defaming the people in daily contact with your son is most unwise. Those are the ones he is bonded to,who constitute his safety net and home environment,and who he will most likely cling to when the chips are down rather than someone he might not remember at all or favorably(small children remember only bad stuff not good unfortunately).
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The post above was left here by its anonymous author D.A.S.in 2015. I was unable to approve its appearance here at the time. Now in 2023, I can see that reactions of this kind are part of the story, so I’m belatedly putting it through.
There are risks involved in fighting against a systemic injustice. Some of the persons whose lives are affected may not like being seen in the categories where they’re found. It may conflict with elements of the identities they’ve constructed for themselves. There are things anyone would not like to be known for; this is understood to be a part of what is involved in being human.
As we grow older, we learn more about this. The psychological injuries we accumulate can be ruinous. Some traumas might indeed compromise reconciliaton with someone who is unable to withstand the undermining effect of “finding out” about the persons with whom they have lived their lives. For the 18 year-old that D.A.S. wrote us about here, it wasn’t possible for him to understand what his father was trying to do at that stage. And the bitterness of that experience was strong enough that he wrote a warning and semi-accusation to me here. The fearsome affect of seeing a repetition of the same cycle of trauma being enacted again must have hit him hard, and he lashed out.
So I’m thinking it over yet again at a greater distance. Who are we bonded to? Who constitutes our life worlds? When we’re young, we may absolutize an element of their character into a totality: it’s a part of adolescence that doesn’t necessarily die off or fade fast. In her early 30’s, Machiko still held on to an invested chunk of her identity that idealized her mother Midori despite numerous ways in which her mother had abandoned her, mistreated her, and used her when she was at the most hotly vulnerable age of her childhood. Midori propped herself up by taking her daughters’ potential adulthoods away. The mistreatment continued with her and her sister right through; Machiko could see and share in this understanding with her sister, Kaori. But somehow she kept the idealization of her mother in a separate compartment of her mind where it was well-protected and couldn’t be dislodged. Despite all the trauma to which she was subjected by her mother, her mother nonetheless remained bathed in a goddess’s unreproachable glow. Had Machiko been internally constituted as willing to confront her inner dependence on keeping that psychological parent intact, she might not have had to rely so heavily on the Manichean view of man and womanhood that drove her to pass violently from intimacy to disgust and disdain. Her partners in life had to belong at one or the other point on the spectrum, or she couldn’t tolerate the conflicts that arose. She couldn’t maintain friendly relations and ease herself back from a violent brink; she had to hate all Americans; all men; all of the colleagues that were at any given moment less business-competent than she was. Failure at any level was tantamount to catastrophe; how else could it be for a child who was dangled by her ankles over a balcony railing by a manic nanny with whom her mother had left her? What other form could conflict take for a young girl who had been given up for adoption to her mother’s sister, placing her in a home where she would no longer live with her beloved sister, or be cared for by her mother as she longed to be?
So what will Rui do? Will Rui require for the entirety of his life that his parent be unassailably perfect, the one who abducted him and who forced him to reject and lose the father he loved, and whom he knew loved him? It may happen like that. Rui might never come to believe that it is possible to gain insights into the anatomy of human destructiveness. He might, just as his more incurious schoolmates may, get stuck in a narrow conception of what people are, beholden as he is and will remain to the persons who were ultimately responsible for traumatizing him, and who then – like Midori – reappear as rescuers or superhero saviors. This is one way of coercing devotion from a dependent child. It worked for Midori. I saw it work for Machiko when Rui was still only just past toddling and was ready to join a New York City public school, where the influences beyond his mother would soon overwhelm her power to manage him and mold sufficient Japaneseness into him, as she wanted. This was easily but uncomfortably anticipated by her through all of the four and a half years that she shared parenting of our boy here with me in New York. So she lashed out, turned internally rageful, suffered physical symptoms such as eye flutter and swollen glands under her arms. Eventually, she justified all this to herself by placing the blame where it could safely be lain: on me, Rui’s father, and her husband. Once she’d accomplished this psychological task, she could justify mistreating me, and mistreating Rui by forcing him to see me through her eyes, even when his heart was clearly being torn and broken by her demand. And once she could see the danger she had forced upon him beginning to manifest itself in him, she knew just what to do. She had to “rescue” him. Unable or unwilling to allow herself to bring her dependence to awareness, the kinds of relational dependence we all of us have, she took him away to hide in the safe haven of the Japanese state, where child abduction can be justified and a concept of children’s right to their parents can’t find expression in words or practices.
Will Rui come to the conclusion that he hates his father because of all this, or will he learn the truth and seek his own rescue?
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These are the abductors of Louis Prager, my son, Rui.
Machiko Terauchi was for many years employed by Steady-Study, a Tokyo-based fashion public relations firm that associates their name by virtue of their use and support of her work with the abuse of children and the denial of children and parent’s rights by the Japanese state. They are the enablers of this entire process, the guild of Japanese child abduction. STOP supporting them!~ Demand that the children be returned to their home countries, and the abductors be JAILED until Japan stops supporting the abduction of children and pays reparations to the families of the abducted in order to support their reintegration with their parent. Stop Japanese International Child Abduction Now! Send Our Children Back Home!!
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Reblogged this on Japan Family Law Reform.
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http://www.interpol.int/en/notice/search/wanted/2012-310739
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Brian, If you’re ever in Tokyo, please consider taking part in a photo project I’m doing on LBPs. More here: http://cargocollective.com/ProjectPhotography#1488817/Left-Behind-in-Japan
Best, Clive France
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I’m so sorry for you!
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Brian,
Your pain is palpable and ever-present. My heart goes out to you both as you endure this outrage. I am in a non-fiction writing critique group here in Austin. One of the women is writing about how her children were kidnapped from her (this was probably 10 years ago) and how she found them and re-kidnapped them back. They were in California, not Japan. But, I have a good friend who is a journalist in Japan, and I forwarded your last post to her. She is an honorable woman and I’ll bet (I pray) that maybe she’ll have the chutzpah to investigate these practices.
Love is a powerful medium, friend. Do not give up on your son. Do not give up on yourself. Do not give up on prayer. Who knows? Perhaps you’ve been given this assignment to bring about social change in Japan? Let me know what I can do to help.
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